Man…. That was some shit just now. Pardon me for talking about myself now, but I’m not in the right mind right now. But it was a hell of a journey. Its just strange to type this down and listen to Kid A by Radiohead, like being on some alien planet right now. About 3 weeks left before a new chapter in life begins, 3 weeks more of enjoying what being in this country like, 3 weeks more of being around the people who I connect to. 3 years have passed since I was that innocent little kid who I used to be, a distant persona. A distant reality from what it is right now.

Some of the beloved people in my last 3 years were flown away by the wind, the beloved people which I will always remember always in my fragmented mind, dissolved by the waste we human beings have created over the past millenia. Lousy shit. The drive back home reminds me of the sleepy drive home from college which had a lot of sweet moments. The lonely drive on the empty stretch of highway is like travelling down the memory lane, a lane full of anguish and later wonderful realisations. Its amazing what 3 years of freedom has lead a person to. Its amazing what kind of shit anyone could go thru in 3 years. The beautiful side of somewhere, the place where we are all searching for, but can never find it. The side of life which we search for all our life. A mythical side of life. Isn't it true? We all search for dreams that never actually have anyhappy endings, the happiness is either short-lived or just an illusion, diluted by reality. There's no such thing, the beautiful side of somewhere....

Tomorrow
Is gonna make you cry
Is gonna make you kneel
Before it breaks you
From inside
Still pressing on
I'm over all
Still trying to
Get both feet back on to the ground
The hardest evenings
Fields in autumn
We're different now
Then when we started

And I am ready to wake up
We're in the exodus
On the beautiful side of somewhere
Baby

The lonely pavement
Underneath the yellow morn
Think of you
And just how easily we bruise
Your folded address
In my pocket I have stuffed
Trying to believe for you
That the body didn't drop
I am on a platform
Covered with dust
I pray they take the both of us

And I am ready to come down
The sea has spoke somehow
On the beautiful side of somewhere

Someday
Somewhere
Someday
Beautiful side of somewhere

I am lighting matches
For the rescue
Some are candles
Some are fuses
Acting on my best behaviour
Switching over every breaker
As we're clawing through
These laws of nature
Disregarding every acre
I'm lying in my Sunday best
Assuming this was not a test

Somewhere, someday
Beautiful side of somewhere

The Beautiful Side of Somewhere - The Wallflowers