Well, it's been one hell of a hoilday, well spent in some ways. Hanging out with the ex-Gardenians has never been as exhilirating as I thought it would have been, from impromptu outings to the usual pool or shisha-ing, jotting all of them down here would be as redundant as staring at a blank wall.

Life has never been as crazy for me, for the first time I saw and heard a lot of things that made me feel concious or re-evaluate about myself, and made me think about what I had gone through, and for the first time, I'm assured that I'm not alone. Friends who had gone thru the same shit in relationships, the misery were hard to bear or carry on. A friend in need is a friend indeed. All I can say now, the past is the past, but the past has changed me in ways that I've never thought of. Well, its not all bad and cloudy though, discovered some wonderful things along the way too; Luna Bar, became closer with ex-Gardenians, and the most important thing of all, how to have fun (but Luna Bar still tops the list =P).

Now that I'm arriving on the third day of my final semester at TCPJ, I felt like the things that happened in the past day could have been resolved in a much better way. But some things have been thought out long ago and I think its a bit hard to change when people have made up their minds. Its like a promise, never to be broken, and I had learned the hard way through other people's doing. Thinking of it just makes me sick.....

Oh well, life goes on, hope the dark clouds of uncertainty will clear within a few days, and let hope shine through the crumminess of life...